Moonfulls

I’ve Been There

I had a dream once, well,  it was more like a memory, I was wondering about unity, forgiveness and what the appropriate action would be to bring healing to myself and others. I was noticing a lot of divisiveness in society rising after the election, I was disturbed by the excessive level of political correctness that seemed to completely ignore the human ability to feel behind words for intention.

I find censorship, in any form, deeply disconcerting as suppression leads to deep schisms in our collective psyche. It creates cycles of shame and silence that leads to even more potentially worse ‘politically incorrect’ outbursts. It is a slippery slope that we should be very aware of. Suppressing people, no matter how offensive they are doesn’t work, the energy needs to be transformed.

All people need to be heard in a healthy society, not shamed, no matter where they are coming from. If someone has ignorant, mean or unhealthy views these individuals actually need to be listened to and worked with, shame and public humiliation doesn’t work. We need to work with them, not because we are condoning their words, but because these individuals need to be exposed to a loving and forgiving energy.

When people become sour and hateful, the answer is not to silence them, but to actually model a different pattern. We have forgotten universal laws and connection to spirit. It is impossible to create deep change in society, from the outside in, we have to become strong as individuals, completely undefined by others and their opinions of us. The external world is created by our inner wold. Of course, it is difficult to be forgiving in this way, to see the highest good in the sick and damaged. It is especially challenging to love yourself, and develop yourself, to the point that you become invincible in regards to other peoples opinions.

If this seems impossible to you, if the voice in your head tells you this is some kind of utopian pipe dream, I have to ask, why are your standards so low? Why have we come to this planet if not to be alchemists, if not to make things better? Never settle.

One more question, could these voices be the ego giving us a sense of  purpose being above others? Are we more honourable, intelligent and informed when we label others as bad people, or ‘incorrect?’ I ask because the ego creates many disguises and it loves to divide and create heirarchies.

Anyway, back to my memory. I asked to be shown a time where society dealt with this situation in a different way. This is often the fastest way to understand something deeply, to access a time where these truths were integrated and alive.

I was a small man in a loin cloth in a primitive society. It was dusty, and all around me was my small community of perhaps 30 others. Unfortunately, I was a bad apple. I could immediately tell I was deeply damaged emotionally. An inky blackness surrounded me, dead energy perpetuated by my shame. My nervous system twitching with guilt. I had extremely low self worth.

large-20I was angry and lashing out at people. Misery was the only thing I could spill because it was all I could feel. All of these actions were a cry for help. I was so distorted and damaged that I all I could do was spew the nastiness inside of me, I felt undeserving of help or compassion, I had forgotten how to give these things to myself.

On the surface I looked like a hateful, hopeless, useless person because on the inside that is what I felt about myself. According to my behaviour, everyone around me had the right to be angry at me for not controlling that toxic energy within me. Perhaps they even had the right to exile me, or at the very least shame and humiliate me in front of my peers. I could feel within me that these actions would have only solidified how much I already hated myself. Within all the turmoil and confusion I would have also had ‘permission’ to be even more violent and destructive as that lack of compassion from society would have confirmed that this behaviour was appropriate.

This is not what happened though. The next memory I have is being surrounded by my ‘brothers’ in the tribe. I am laying down and there are about 8-10 around me, surrounding me from every angle. I feel an openness. The next thing I know I am sharing everything inside of me. All of my emotions and my darkest thoughts are pouring out of me and I start to cry. I begin by sharing the hurts and abandonment of my childhood. I was left by my own father to die, my mother I never knew. As this occurs, they grab my hands, they smile and say:

“I’ve been there!”

“Have you been there?”
Another brother asks to the person beside him.

“Yes, yes, I have been there.”
He replies with a kind look in his eyes.

I was shocked, I was not expecting anyone to accept this answer. I expected them to tell me that I should not feel what I was feeling, that time had passed and I should be moving on. I begin going deeper and deeper, crying even more, sharing things that I think are unforgivable. I go into my darkest deeds, in a way, trying to challenge this acceptance, testing the limit.

“I’ve been there”

“I’ve been there”

“I’ve been there”

All chimed in around me. All of my brothers nodded in agreement and continued to rock back and forth like a comforting lullaby. This went on for what seemed like hours. No one became impatient or distracted, everyone around me was focussing on me, listening, understanding and letting me know that they have been where I have been.

“I’ve been there.”

“We’ve been there”

They continued. Their soft smiles and nurturing laughter let me know I could survive. All of my most tormented actions and thoughts, and some were terrible, seemed to dissolve in this unconditional love and acceptance of my peers. Some times they sat in silence with me and just allowed unconditional love to speak, but most things I had said were responded to with this nurturing acceptance and understanding.  They had become the love that I did not know, or realize, I could give myself. These words surrounding me mixed with their patient presence created an environment of complete release. I began to feel my divinity, just as a little spark. My desire to fight with myself faded, it began to make no sense. I began to see how all of the things I had carried were not true deep in my soul. I began to see that beyond all of the lies I had told myself, and blinding pain, I was worthy and functioning. It was as though the inky blackness had been peeled away to reveal my true self.

That night women in the tribe fed me, bathed me and wrapped me in a warm blanket. They built a fire so I could be alone with large-22the stars. This was the first time, in a long time that I felt I could be as vast as the sky. The next morning I was monitored by the tribe, I was listened to, fed and loved. I was not belittled or punished for my confessions and I was also not pitied. I was not made to feel as though I was a burden on the tribe and I did not feel left out. They didn’t try to push their agendas or beliefs on me even though they clearly had leverage. They understood that real change would come from allowing me the opportunity to feel unconditionally loved. They knew that A force deep within me would begin to speak again and steer the ship.

This treatment allowed me to release my fears and pain, they completely dissolved. I entered society again not as a labelled deviant but as a healer.

I helped other people heal where I was once wounded, and I joined the group of brothers and was deeply honoured to chime in: “I was there”, because I was. I was there.

What this memory has reminded me is that unconditional love and acceptance for ones self and others is what heals all wounds, no matter the depth. We are divine, we are love, we are God. We don’t have to get there, we are already there, unconditional love, forgiveness, and acceptance is simply the behaviour of someone who knows that.

Somewhere along the way, as we moved from small nomadic tribes of 30 to cities of millions, we forgot this truth. Perhaps annonymity and disconnectedness shielded us from feeling our own reflection in others. We began to believe that we need to punish ourselves and each other to keep order.

We began to believe that we were not strong enough to forgive or accept the life that unfolds. We invested in cycles of shame hoping that if we felt deep enough regret and dislike of ourselves that some higher force would step in and save us. We began to think that coldness was the appropriate response to the sick and wounded, not realizing that cruelty and abandonment of others has never been a vehicle of ascension.

The truth is, and always was, that we are our own saviours, and we are each others saviours. We save ourselves by forgiving ourselves for actions, thoughts and feelings that we have that do not represent who we are. We save others by forgiving them for actions that have hurt us, and loving them unconditionally, even if it is from afar. This stops the cycle of pain and ego that reduces society into reactive hurt animals. At the end of the day we have all been there, at some point or another in our existence, and as we honour all parts of ourselves and each other we rise into a strong collective- a tribe of billions.

 

 

 

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  1. Mike

    What a beautiful truth…I’ll treasure it always.

  2. Jared

    Amazing read. I wonder, when you were sick, you were only hurting yourself mainly, correct? What happens when a sick person becomes the ruler (and his white supremacist advisors are in power) content and ready to do their damage? Should we remain tolerant or act to contain them and their voices? Or even when someone sick has a voice of influence? The concern is that hate and ignorance can spread like wildfire because – like fire – it is a hard energy to contain and easily destroys things that are unrelated to it’s source. If a sick person is not in power, then we usually have direct access to them and can heal them. When the Nazis of this world come out, we must act with firm boundaries in mind. Once contained, we can heal perhaps them if they want. But it is ultimately their choice.

    • Gigi Young

      Hi Jared,

      I hear your concern. There are a lot of past wounds resurfacing at this time, it is important to explore what is real and what is illusion, this is the test. If a person comes into power that is a white supremacist then it is up to society to remove him or her from power, immediately. For this individual to be effectively removed, there must be a strong degree of unity within the country, open minded dialoguing between all peoples no matter their political or social standing. Divided countries whether it be by class, race, gender or creed have little influence on their leaders so it is important to challenge our beliefs regularly and approach one another with a mindset that is open enough to learn from our differences. The people need to come together and stop being so divided for any real social change to occur.

      The Nazi’s rose because of suppression, shame and humiliation in Germany after the extensive reparations crippled the country on all fronts after WW1 and is a good example of what I am speaking about here. The persecution of ‘impure’ people started to scapegoat these frustrations. Division created that environment. Therefore, in my opinion we must create the best container possible so that these leaders cannot rise. This means challenging ourselves, challenging our beliefs so that we can find the truth and be unified.

      • Jared

        Thanks for your response. As a person of color living in North Carolina, I can tell you that the level of threats against me, my baby sister and parents since Trump got in has made us scared to death. I remember you are from Canada and could not know, but it’s super bad down here. I agree with all you said. But I do not know how to deal with it when people come up to me a threaten to slit my throat because I am biracial, I should treat them as you mentioned from a position of having been there – been racist.

        Trump is like Hitler. He wants to ban and register an entire ethnic group with muslims, even though the chance of a white supremacists committing an act of terror is similar statistically (mass shootings, Oklahoma city, Charleston etc). He accused Obama of not being American because he was black – making no fuss of Ted Cruz who was actually born abroad, he called mexican immigrants rapists – not the human traffickers but an entire race, he refused to rent to middle class and rich black people in the 80s and the list goes on. His top advisers have been openly racist. These are not illusion. There are in his and their own words.

        I agree with your take. But Hilter also used lies and fear based conspiracy theories to get a nation to scapegoat an entire race. People chose to believe those things. That is happening now. He personally outsources jobs, but blames the Mexicans. He and a whole class of people like him are far more privileged than the very minorities they are scapegoating. At what point to they have to take responsibility for their hate? At what point must we set fir boundaries?

        Please read this, it’s about this very subject from an insiders perspective on personal responsibility: “The Dark Rigidity of Fundamentalist Rural America – An Insiders’ View”

        http://www.rawstory.com/2016/11/the-dark-rigidity-of-fundamentalist-rural-america-a-view-from-the-inside/

        • Gigi Young

          Hello Jared,

          I hear you, and I have noticed your concerned comments on my videos as well. Although my article references political correctness, an issue that Donald Trump and countless others have expressed concern about, this article is not about Trump. It was inspired partly by the election but is not directly about the racial dynamics of America.

          This post is about my past life experience in a primitive society that introduced to me another way of thinking and feeling about trauma in society. Censorship and PC culture is a risk to free speech including the alternative videos I and others make. That is why I speak about it and will continue to speak about it.

          To be clear, I am not writing about PC culture (in this or others things I have done) from the point of race, I write to protect alternative voices and points of view that are jeopardized when a government begins to decide what media is ‘fake’ or real. This is a slippery slope, I hope you can understand that. Free speech is important and as a Canadian that doesn’t ‘technically’ have free speech, I admire America very much for allowing its people to speak freely.

          • Jared

            Lol I did comment a few months back here, good memory! I really enjoy your material, and this is not to be a contrarian, but to understand in deeper ways.

            You think the main problem of today after this election is too much political correctness and that people can be healed with all guards down by their fellow tribe mates.

            I fully connect with you that too much PC can be suffocating. That has been talked a lot about by progressives like Bill Maher so like you mention it’s not just Trump. On the other end of the spectrum, too much openness if of the vile kind can be bad. If it was acceptable to talk openly about exploiting underage girls, or speak casually racist in a way that was deeply hurtful to innocent people, we can probably agree that that would be going too far. We are tribe animals, social animals, and social norms are relied on by many to form their moral centre.

            Going back to Germany before WW2, you can see how quickly these moral centres can change when the lowering of what is acceptable by the tribe meets misguided anger. Talking and ranting about economic hardship in an open way does little to purge the anger. Hearing about other’s economic pain just builds the anger up. The two meet up and it can be explosive.

            And it’s doesn’t have to be about race. There was a time when if the tribe openly talked about sexual assaulting women, that would be a nono. Now, the leader of the tribe brags on air (youtube his howard stern shows) about walking in to underage pageant dressing rooms to get some good peeps, or talks about marrying ten year old girls someday. What should parents tell there kids about whether this is correct behavior? Is this an era of too much PC, or are boundaries that have been there for hundreds of years quickly eroding? You are one of the few I know who is not worried about this which is why I am curious to talk to you.

            In your memory, there was a tribe to bring you back. But what would have happened had everyone in the tribe all been sick at the same time – affected with the same condition due to mass trauma that happened to the entire tribe (like economic hardship)? How would that ritual work? – On a boring business trip so this discussion is a life line for me right now, Tanks!

  3. Sara

    Excellent post!
    I’ve been there 🙂 brilliant ❤️

  4. Alex

    Wowwwwwww after I read the first two paragraphs I was like I’ve been there. As I read on I knew what was gunna happen. I think I might have been a brother. This to me proves that we all have indeed “been there.”

  5. Nicole

    Those are the kind of words that make it easy to tell that your are an amazing and leading edge spiritual teacher!

  6. Shahin

    Great article ❤

  7. Nathan

    My heart yearns to have this again. Every time someone reads this or shares this, we come one step closer to pulling this back into our collective reality. Thank you so much for sharing this!

    • Geoffrey Mays

      I’m with you man! Let’s keep holding the vision in our hearts despite what seems to be insurmountable odds. And with Gigi’s post and others in a similar vein, it gives us hope that the dream is indeed spreading (or at the very least, that we are not alone, and have a forum in which to share and spread this most beautiful of dreams.) I live for peace on Earth and goodwill among All Beings.

  8. greg

    Love. Great read. thanx G!!

  9. KL

    Hi Gigi!

    This is a great post, and directly related to something I’m dealing with today.

    I have a couple questions, one related to the material, one not.

    First off, do you have any advice for what to do when you live with a toxic, unhappy person who refuses love? Especially when they are affecting your vibration and it’s not yet a financial option for you to move.

    I wasn’t sure where to ask my next question, as I have no Facebook (I did try the contact form on Moonbird, but as soon as I hit send, it felt like the wrong forum), so please forgive me for being off topic.

    I recently had a wonderful experience with your ET guide meditation (thank you for that!). During the meditation, the guide I was introduced to said that he was from Neptune, which was very cool and unexpected. I plan to keep connecting with and learning from him, but in the meantime, I was hoping you might be able to share any information on Neptune and its denizens, as there is not much online.

    Thank you so much for all you do!

  10. Anthea Cabrestante

    What a beautiful story. 🙂

  11. Virginia Archer

    Gigi, thanks for sharing. This story is healing all of us. Humans are capable of radical amounts of love. This story reminds me of that power. I love the image of the brothers swaying around you in wisdom and acceptance. Reminds me of the ritual scene in “Avatar”. Xoxo

  12. Charlene

    It’s amazing how you are guided to read or experience something that speaks to you so deeply and help you process even more.

  13. Geoffrey Mays

    Love the story Gigi! A beautiful affirmation of the power of Love. I’ve been there.

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